im back from camp!! today's supposed to be a school day but was too tired to go to school... reached home at 12 noon yesterday, slept from 1 right up to 7! then i slept from 11 right to now... -.-zzz skin is peeling from my face already.. aarrgghhh! wanna know what happen during camp, here's what...

[[day 1]] -- everyone was really bored and hope that they werent in camp... they thought the trainers would be like the army, thos darn fierce ones.. but it turns out that they are niceeee people, very funny too.. hehe~ the bunks were cosy for me, cos me like the woody feeling.. (madness~~) but yeahh, the wood was of course hard... my first activity was rock-climbing and it aint easy... only nicholas (my dear "son") reached the top... yay~!! and because of this darn activity, i injured my arms.. goshh~ big army ants bit me too... o.O!!! then, we headed to the crc... im soooo afraid of heights! maybe because of that, i've got a headache.. alif was so funny... he went for the rope one, and got stuck... he didnt dare to move.. haha~ and we found our two screamers, winnie and aisvarya... throughout the whole thingy, they were screaming and screaming.. people below were laughing... =.= next was the low element one ^^ had to grab hands to walk on the zigzag panel... and stupid trainers made it to be alternate boy girl... hakim almost made me fall and shunli balanced me back... haha! thanks for that~ lols! anyway, our group beat the previous group (dont know which one) by a second! amazing~ then, we played "shore n' board", was a darn lame game of course.. but no one was shy then already... the guys and the girls gotta help each other and squeeze into two boards... we even have to sing.. haha! oops, and i step a few times on bala's hand... sorry!! then we had to "cross"over the "toxic river" by swinging across.. the problem was how we can get the rope... at first, they tied the shoelaces together, and the laces went over, neer came back...=p then they threw shoes over, bad shots, the shoes went over and the rope was still in the same position... haha! finally, they've got it... (yay~) then, with the help with another, everyone have to swing across... shunli swing across with the bucket, and got his head all wet.. (awww~ too bad! =p) okay, i almost fell too.. thanks to those great people who grabbed me in time... ^^ hehe~ final activity, zip line aka flying fox! it's really fun seeing people flying down... haha! eileen, chiahsin and me were like soooo bored that we grabbed the stones lay as ground and guess the numbers... chiahsin is sooooo psychic!! gawdd~ we had difficulty coming out with our cheer and item for campfire.. but night walk was kind of fun... got to see fireflies!! besides that, the sky was very beautiful~ that i dont look at the steps im walking, i was staring at the beautiful sky~ =)) awww, i missed home so badly... cried with eileen~ thanks to leonardi, who refused to lend handphone to me... thanks once again! =/ i dont feel like sleeping that night, so read magazine with eileen... then, an trainer walked past, we pretend to be asleep and who know, we really fell asleep! o.O!!!

that was the first day, shall write about second day next time.. hehe~ =p miss him~~

loved; 9:34 AM

today went to watch the eye 10 with shixuan, charmaine, jolene, nicholas, yulin, gary, wellson, shunkai, chonghua & elton... the show was hilarious abide from being scary... lols! sooooo funny~ but the whole event was boring... we, girls went to take neoprints which was quite niceeee =)) then went plaza singapura to get the tickets, eat and play arcade... next, was the movies... hate the sitting arrangements but whatever~ then just walk around for awhile and went home... aint that lame!! everyone wanted to pack their bags for camp, so decided to go home early... =/

im tired... i wanted to give up, but forgetting is easier said than done... he will never know that he's the one... haiz~ totally lost mood... from the start when i went out... it's all over~

loved; 9:50 PM

midnight again... recently im sleeping late.. =/ haiz~ havent packed my bag for the camp and yet im going out tomorrow... *.* gawd, couples are breaking up, sad thing... =/ watching the eye 10, some say it's scary, some say it's hilarious... haha~ who to believe ehh? hehe...

just a few lines with him todayy.. just a teeny weeny chat, haha! was that bored that i edited another song... this is my third song.. =PpP wonder where will we be going tomorrow, im all confused... life's so boring that i have nothing to write... had conference just now, nicholas hung up twice!! first time, gave in, went to call back... second time, sorry, i aint calling back!! lols... haiz~ i think i better get to sleep soon... nites~ =))

loved; 12:00 AM

it's a holiday for it's good friday.. makes no difference for me... =/ haiz... wonder if they're still going for the movie on sunday... it's like "oh, im going" then it's "hmmm... im not sure" and it's "yeahh, i will go" again it's "let me think over it" =.= what's that?! haiz~ i give up, all right? people, confirm then tell me, if not, then dont go... =/

went out again today, cos i dont wanna rot at home... lols~ esta & ron are such a cute "jap-style" couple.. i mean their dressings.. haha~ soooo kawaii! =)) and i didnt know that guy in the train, standing behind me was jun's brother!!! goshh~~ no wonder he was like giving me a funny look... =/ didnt realise until jun sms me and his brother was gone... =.= co. and gang suck~! i didnt know co. can be sooooo darn irritating... bad influence from his gang of friends... =/ i will never ever sit in the same bus as them anymore... it's embarrassing~ =.=

watched shutter (vcd) just now... was told it was scary, but i thought it was all right.. except that was one part i got a shock and screamed... my throat was already bad and now plus a scream... unable to sing le~ sian~ goshh~ havent talked to him for the whole day, not at all... and this time he wont be online after i posted, cos i wont be home until after midnight... awww, sheesh~ =(

loved; 10:38 PM

it's midnight already... last day of school for the week.. tomorrow's good friday, and im going out, again... =/ haha~ haiz~ wonder if sunday's movie thingy is confirmed? well hopefully... watched white chicks again today, so funny`!! hehe... still can laugh when i already watched it once... =P

zhu peng gou you rawks big time... =)) haha, maybe we can have a band ^^ lols.. i edited the lyrics of tonghua into a song of our own, the very first song... hehe~ well it's in the other blog of mine... i think it's quite badly done, didnt have the inspriration... =/ stayed in school till 6 for fun... went to see breaking in the hall by eliseus and people... then livia, shixuan, xuli, charmaine and me ended up gossiping and chatting about almost anything under the sun... yeahh, it's so fun... =))

havent seen him online today.. yeahh, right now i think he's only on the way home? lols~ so im rather bored sitting in front of the computer.. i guess i will go "edit" even more songs.. =P better of ten songs to compile into "the first debut album" haha!! speak of the "angel", came online... =/ anyway, i think i shall stop writing here... ciao~

loved; 11:59 PM

yesterday was too busy to post... homeworks have piled up! haiz~ happy birthday to shunli`!! his present was a shirt, cos was told that he needed a niceeee shirt... haha, he better like it!! syf is around the corner, april 6th~ yikes`! i dont wanna go to the sec 3 camp, i dont see the point... im afraid of waters & height, how am i to survive there?! shall eat & sleep the whole time.. haha~

i guess many people were shot by the cupid arrow recently... couples are coming up, but some of them looked fake or rather desperate... goshh~~ =.= some of them had many problems too... sadness~ =/ sprained my ankle (the same leg) again... haiz~ there goes my dream of dancing, AGAIN!! i think i better get back to my pile of work... ciao~

loved; 7:34 PM

first day of the new term... dread going to school, cant really wake up but perhaps like what cheeps say, he will be the reason.. =)) met cherie's mum yesterday, didnt say hi... awww, sad... guessed she's doing well in the singapore dance theatre, towards her stardom of ballet... well, i wish her all the best! ^^ and i met samuel today, long long long lost friend... guess what, yeahh, i didnt say hi again.. im not very sure if it's him cos he's got the common look... =/ sad huh?

well i guess today shall be a short post... aint in the mood to talk muchh.. =/ at least, i've talked to him (a little?)... haiz`~

loved; 8:35 PM

just reached home... and i hadnt finish my homeworks... yikes`!! =/ went out for the whole day... haiz~ went to bugis for shopping, but shoes & clothes... wheee~~ ellie's got a cute boyfriend & a cute niece!!!!! hehe =P they looked like a happy family when they were like hand in hand strolling down the streets... bwahahaha~ oops, i think i'll be killed if she sees this... =X

bought sooooo many vcds today... broke once again~ haiz~ i think im spending money like nobody's business... people out there, better help to stop me from spending money... hehe~ i still cant dance!! i could only watch and help in the choreographing... =( when will my leg recover... haiz~

tomorrow's a start of a new term... sianzation~ no more long hours of sleep... -.-ZzzzZZZz!! i dont wanna go to school~!! ='( haiz~ missing him for the whole day... sian~~~ *.*

loved; 7:23 PM

another day has passed... rather bored... watching "taxi" and chatting online with a couple of people... =)) today's so boring, have been watching tons of movies, including the eye 2... was told that it's nice and stuffs... it's not even a little scary... =/ it's more like basic knowledge of reincarnation?! lols...

decided not to go see the bboying by break-force crew tomorrow... they never even say what time they are performing... =/ afraid chonghua's gonna be annoyed cos all of us decided not to go... haiz~ have to sacrifice some time for dc and gotta search for my crystals... (perhaps, you didnt know, it's one of my greatest obsession!)

addicted to talking to him... becoming a daily routine, haha... yeahh, feel weird if im not doing so... so today's like every other day... =p okayy, shall go back to my chattings & movies... ciao~

loved; 10:22 PM

haiz... now's gonna be midnight, not asleep yet~ missing him... at least he did come online... =)) well he left not long ago... =/ just left playing pool with gary, yulin & wellson... (ehem, i watched more than i played) haha, stopped playing ever since wellson came in... hehe~ imagine playing with those pro dudes.. *.* haha, just now i purposely on all the oldies on my computer and made my dad sing... it's kind of funny seeing him sing... woah, he sangg~ haha!

guess he must had wondered if the guy i mentioned was him... well yeahh, it's him... but how can i say... facing the fears i had, feeling the pain all over again ='( simply, im also starting to wonder what he meant by all those he said... am i thinking too much or does he really mean something? =/ my world is filled with him...

-missing him starts from the very minute he left-

loved; 11:43 PM

yay`! added music in... it's my favourite song, tong hua.. i believe it's many people's favourite... cant believe charmaine like it sooo much too... that "angmoh" freak =X bwahahaha~ it's also our song =)) lalala~i think im gonna leave tong hua for the whole day!!! hehe~

today's so boring, at home for the whole day.. =/ he never came online.. didnt bother to sms him todayy, i think he's busy.. whole day staring at the computer screen... had new vcds to watch, but sian~ dont feel like watching alone... didnt go to kbox, cos many people cant make it and thus, it was cancelled... two more days to school reopen, what will life be then? hmmm... im looking forward to see how it will be like then, but i seriously dont wish the holidays be over so soon... haiz~ wonder if sunday chonghua, gary, jolene are still going for the breakdance show... yet, i havent finish my homeworks... yikes`!

anyway, check out the other blog of mine... new layout and new song... leehom's ai cuo... it's nice! =D

loved; 6:04 PM

haha.. i think it's better i post right before i sleep... if not i'll be updating twice a day... =/ just went out to buy some stuffs and of course in search of my tiramisu... haiz.. and i failed again... cant find~~ =( instead, met shuai ges again.. bwahahaha~ !!huge notice!! im not desperate..... haha!

again, i saw a group of bballers, i think from bishan park... happens to be my friend's friends... haiz~ whyy does this always happen? this time, no jap style.. only spikes and more spikes~ but 80% of the team is above average... =P i didnt have time to talk much, so i was just "hi" and went off to buy my stuffs... =/ but, i could hear clearly that one guy was singing tong hua~~ at least he didnt "ruin" the song... hehe~ i think im really crazy about the song... o.O!! then, i have to walk back the same way to go back... and they were still there... i was spotted but i just avoided and ran off.. =X okayy, wondering whyy i did that? here's whyy.......... i dont know!!!!!! haha...

actually, i dont understand whyy my ex all happens to be bballers?! haha... maybe there's a weird attraction... (what rubbish~) i wanna change to uniform groups! okayy, im crapping... how can i say change then change... if it's that easy, i wont be in pain... =/ yummy... having almond pecan praline ice cream... weird name but nice taste~ haiz... wondering if i should go to kbox tomorrow.. i've been longing to do so, but im feeling really broke and abit sian~ =.= yeahh, i got an 'angmoh' group of friends, that are stuck to english songs... but what can i do when i know more chinese songs plus kbox promotes much more chinese songs than english ones? =/

i wonder sometimes if people are taking me for granted, to do things on their behalf... or rather talking to me, for the sake of benefiting something from me... it's like that's all they remember... what am i worth? how pathetic can it be?! excuse me, im human, all right? i aint any slave... ~.~

loved; 9:06 PM

went for e maths remedial todayy... mr chan wanted to cancel the remedial at first, seeing less than half of the class went... haiz~ we should have asked the rest that were sitting in the canteen to stay and not come to class... so it will be cancelled... spent two hours of my life at boring e maths, where i didnt gain anything~ im supposed to have physics after e maths remedial but i guess almost half the class skipped it, just like me.. =P

together with me, gladys, aisvarya, logen, amily, fuhua, lauren, kimngoh, guankai, guanyu, harris, shunli & nicholas went to nearby mac for breakfast.. then, aisvarya, logen, fuhua & me went off... okayy, i think we were really dying of boredom, and when we looked at the mrt map, we settled with changi airport... you may not believe it, we really headed to changi airport... first, we went to eat cos we were starving (tsk... we didnt eat at mac) then we went to see planes... =D okayy, if anyone out there thinks it's a stupid idea, well thanks! cos it's my idea.. =.= after we finally seen a plane took off (and many many many planes landing), we decided to shop around... not to forget the number of rides on the skytrain we took... i think i lost count =X we took as much times as we could, until the kids stared at us for we took the best seats... =/

then we took mrt all the way back... haiz~ what a long day... met my friend, elynn when i alight at the mrt... anyway, we took the same bus home... she's with two guy friends of hers, that i have no idea who... okayy, they are attractive, so? one of them (got jap style sia~) was like so act cool or something? at first, i was staring at him, seeing what's his problem, and when i finally heck cared and talked to elynn, he suddenly "bung" grabbed the pole in front of me, like trying to regain attention... who cares sia~ he didnt even bother to say bye! but, when he finally alighted and the bus started driving off, he took peeks... how retarded... the other guy ishh much better (although he's also quiet, but hmm.. he aint that good looking) =P

now i feel even more broke... spent money and i dont like where they have gone to... =.= haiz~ i guess i better "try" to stop going out... =/ i still wanna watch the eye 10... hehe.. signing out-

stella

loved; 5:06 PM

feeling rather bored` so decided to post my top 20 songs for both english & chinese... hehe~ maybe if you dont have the song and want it, you can come look for me... but i guess most people should be familiar with them~ =) note: the songs are in random order, okayy?

*__chinese songs__*

0ne // linda__ye xu

tw0 // guang liang__t0ng hua

three // lee h0m__f0rever l0ve

f0ur // david ta0__ai w0 hai shi ta

five // shin*dai ailing__qian nian zhi lian

six // lee h0m__ai cu0

seven // dai ailing__dui de ren

eight // ambr0se hsu__xing fu de shun jian

nine // tensi0n__gen zhe yue liang man man z0u

ten // bad__d0nt say g00dbye

eleven // li sheng jie__sh0u fang kai

twelve // ahba0 * brandy__ga0 bai

thirteen // lu0 zhi xiang__xia0 ch0u yu

f0urteen // david ta0_ta0 yan h0ng l0u meng

fifteen // eas0n chan__l0nely christmas

sixteen // tanya chua * stefanie sun__yuan dian

seventeen // zh0u chuan xi0ng__nan ren hai yang

eighteen // renee chen__w0 deng de ren hui shi shui

nineteen // j0lin tsai__da0 dai

twenty // she__w0 ai ni

*__english songs__*

0ne // gareth gates__unchained mel0dy

tw0 // blues__curtain fall

three // kelly clarks0n__g0ne

f0ur // usher__burn

five // taufik batisah__i dream

six // kelly clarks0n__breakaway

seven // clay aiken__the way

eight // green day__time 0f y0ur life

nine // phantom 0f the 0pera__think 0f me

ten // spice girls__viva f0rever

eleven // mar00n 5__this l0ve

twelve // kelly clarks0n__m0ment like this

thirteen // angela zhang__j0urney

f0urteen // chen wei da__till the end

fifteen // juwita suwit0__breathe again

sixteen // simple life__welc0me t0 my life

seventeen // seal__kiss fr0m a r0se

eighteen // the rasmus__n0t like the 0ther girls

nineteen // beegees__first 0f may

twenty // linkin park * jay z__numb

actually i seriously think there's more than twenty songs, but i guess this will be my top 20 for now! =)

signing out-

stella

loved; 8:31 PM

i guess today's home alone again... woke up rather late today, had nothing to do... perhaps i might change the blog template soon... =/ (cos im dying of boredom) yeahh, i havent finish my homework...

haha, played yahoo! pool with yulin & gary... so retarded... =p gary got hidden talents, forever saying he's lousy, and he beat us.. =.= i guess i wont win a single round, if they hadnt give in.. haha! gary, if you happen to see this, you still owe me my lollipops!! hehe...

had been staring at the computer since the time i woke up... so you should have guessed how boredd i am... created another blog for "lurfee"... =) i hope i dont abandon that one either... haha~ very little people online, guess it's holidays and everyone's out bahhs... lucky i have enough songs to play throughout the day... stuffing myself with food and drinks, gonna turn fat~ like anyone give a damn huh?

feeling really sick... cant dance, sprained ankle... it should be the cause of my depression right now... =/ there's one thing left to do, that is, sing~ hmmm... have two remedials tomorrow... e maths & physics, both are boring ones... *yawns* really feel like skipping them~ i had to wake up early for them... sickening`! suddenly feel like watching a movie... but in the other hand, feeling really broke... no idea where my money had gone to... =.=

had been spending my time missing him... feeling like a walking zombie.. what more can i do?

stella

loved; 1:08 PM

well, i finally started using blog, AGAIN... haha.. i hope i wont abandon it once more... so dont be surprised if i stop writing... hehe... today's boring... went to choir for three whole hours and went to buy things with jolene, shixuan & guys... had a short lunch before heading home... i dont know what's up with me, sleep straight when i reached home =/ guess im too tired from the sunday & monday hang-outs...

speaking of sunday, okayy, boogeyman wasnt that nice as gladys said... well, it wasnt that scary except gary can be the boogeyman instead.. he's the one trying to scare me throughout the show! as for the couples, well it definitely was an advantage... hehe~ bowling was rather comical too... shixuan & xuli were so "tyco" for the strikes! hsunhao showed off his "talents" and scored the highest, yet not able to reach 100... haha! (so you can see the standard) =PpP i guess all of us had much fun, but yeahh, it's tiring!! i guess i spent about 14 hours out of my house! woah~

monday, went to choir... and choir was to go to st gabriel for an exchange programme, to prepare us for syf i guess... was nerve racking at first, but was aight~ =) then we went to charmaine's house, for fun... (tsk, it was INDEED fun) "watched" cheaper by a dozen.. ate three packets of chips and fell asleep before the show was halfway through... everyone's almost dying of boredom...

strangely, everyone had the sunday events in their heads... at least, yeahh for the gurls... we had dreams that include the people that went that day... haha~ quite amusing upon discussing all weird dreams... okayy, shall stop here for now... continue next time! signing out -

stella

loved; 10:11 PM